These tears I cry don’t matter
They will be gone come the dawn
Washing me clean, making me strong
Erasing the false hopes my heart had formed
I scoured each word for meaning
Thought hard and tried to interpret
But no word was an actual promise
Convincing myself falsely you would commit
It’s time to break free of the chains
The ones I bound myself in and said it was you
You were never the one trying to keep me close
It was me all along. The one whose truth wouldn’t make do…
The sun shines like my heart feels for you
A promise to wait, like Spring waits on the winter to end
Then one day a ray of warmth makes the hopeful expectation fulfilled
The harvest is ready and full, abundant and joyful, even though the work has only just begun
People need people, and friends need friends
And we all need love for a full life depends
Not on vast riches or on great acclaim
Not on success or worldly fame
But just by knowing that someone cares
And holds us close in thoughts and prayers
For lifes completeness always depends
On things we share with our loved ones and friends
I can see the stars do you see them too?
Can you count them from where they’re shining on you?
Everyone one of them is a wish I made for you,
Close your eyes and believe that they will come true.
I see you there
Not with my eyes but with my heart
But you don’t see me the same way
In your world I am lost
Can you see me?
Please hold me tight in this memory.
Or am I now like an extinguishing flame,
Your letting it die.
Can’t you see the glow dimming behind these eyes?
Sometimes I am tired of being strong
Of carrying all these hopes alone
Everyone once in a while you must see my cracks
And catch the tears that fall in the palms of your hands
Then perhaps you might understand what it means to feel and be alive.
May I light my candle at your flame
Burning bright and warm within you?
Can I draw near and be enveloped
By the soft caressing shadows cast by your glow?
I want to be cuckoond in your warmness
Lost in a never ending embrace
Even when the morning light rises above the horizon
I will still be lost in your embers
Curled around your radiating heat
I uttered my fragile fears,
hoping to find solace in your heart –
Instead they are crushed further into me as
your own scars are flung upon me.
Now I am drowning further.
Opening pages of a gifted word
a pre-destined blessing is poured upon my wounds
Hope whispering again:
Seek not your healing from the lost…
Surrender – All control to the one above.
Find your faith when all is lost,
Your joy when pain can no longer dim your innate song.
Words spoken, words hidden,
dancing around the unsaid
our eyes captive in the others’
but our hearts wandering free
hiding in our embrace
bleeding souls finding comfort
a tangled mess
yet it all makes sense
And all I knew, was that I felt safe in his arms. Not because I was weak but because by nature he was created physically stronger. The marvel of man and womans’ creation.
You say to me
Pictures paint a thousand words
But what does that mean
I’m still waiting in my lonely world
How can it be
That what you say can be the truth?
And I’ll just close myself off again
Safe and warm hiding from them
Perhaps one day I’ll know
The truth in when you say these words
Will it be so?
For now that remains untrue
Like a sun, I am a planet revolving around your orb
Constant in my living thoughts and revolutions
Seasons change, we are hot then cold, turning toward and away
And when you leave, my world implodes
It’s like darkness and I must begin again